The first of many choices

I have an interview tomorrow for a job at work that would be a promotion for me. I love interviews so I am excited to get a chance to read the interviewers and answer the questions with the words or stories that they will respond to. It is like facing a new pitcher in baseball. There is a nervous energy that runs through you as you wonder “Can I hit this guy?” Anyway I have this interview and with it there is an interesting dilemma. If I do well and I get this job then I will get a raise and transition into a supervisor role with different responsibilities and all of those good times. If I don’t get the job then I will likely get to work form home as the other guy up for the position does now. I would be able to be there for Kate and the baby. There wouldn’t be a raise per say but I would not commute an hour a day, so there is gas money to be saved. I would also not eat out and I would be able to spend lunches with my beautiful and my child.

I am not sure what I want to be honest. The money would help and the distinction between work and home would be good. But leadership means personality conflicts and increased availability. Being at home means getting to save on travel and gas and be there with Kate and the baby but it also means a blur between work space and home space. It feels like the first of those questions of money vs. time spent. I think I will know by the end of the week or early next week but I wish I could get to the bottom of which I am rooting for. No matter what sporting event I watch there is one side that I choose over the other even if I don’t care what is going on. But on this one I still don’t know what side I want to win.